I’ve known this for SOOOO long. That’s why I quit my first job in my first company even though I LOOOOVE my colleagues and my team. That’s why I quit my second job although I LOOOOVE my territory assignment and used my dad’s condition as an excuse instead. I hate having a boss, I hate waking up early, I hate it whenever I am asked about my KPIs and whereabouts. I don’t like being micro managed. I basically just hate working for anyone.
But the question is: WHAT DO I WANT TO DO FOR THE REST OF MY LIFE?
If you will seriously ask me that, I will probably say, “WRITE.”
I knew I wanted a career in writing but I don’t actually know how to pursue that because (1) I don’t have a formal training in writing, and (2) I tried sending my sample works to a few writing agencies but got rejected. I remember there’s this one company who asked me samples of my work. And then I told them (we talked via e-mail) upfront that I don’t have any sample works but they can just send me topics and I will write about it. Well, they didn’t reply after that.
I stopped trying since then.
I know I have the skills, not as good maybe, but I have it.
Anyway, back to my realization that I hate being in the corporate realm. This isn’t the first time like what I have said. If my boyfriend would find out about this blog post, he’ll probably roll his eyes nervously, saying, “Ayan na naman po siya…” But I can’t help it!
Currently, I am trying to build this digital business while conceptualizing this passion project of mine. HAHAHA puro plano.
Why is it sooo hard to start something that matters to you? Why is it sooo hard to execute something you have planned for a looong time? Why is it sooo hard to trust the process? To trust your skills and capabilities? Why is it sooo scary to take the leap and reach your dream?
HAY, CHECK OUT KO NA ‘TO. Lol.